Lots of Emotions

Since my scan a month ago things have gotten worse.    I hope that it's just some weird post trauma thing or that it's all in my head, but I can't help but feel like the cancer is back.

I don't think I would ever say that I felt "back to myself."  I did feel like I was progressing in the right direction slowly.  A few months ago I started noticing a decline.  A decline in my fatigue, in my attitude (snappy, agitated, impatient,) an increase in pressure and pain around my heart,  bone pain, and now---itching.

Having the itch come back was my worst fear.  It's pretty unbearable.  Especially because I try to give other excuses to why it would be happening.  Outdoors? Medication reaction?  New lotion?

Finally I'm giving in and going to call my doctor tomorrow.

We'll see how it all goes.  Until then, I'll accept any prayers sent this way.  :)