Chemo 7

I'm over halfway. 

Talking with my friend Katie-- she mentioned how going through chemotherapy became a very emotional battle.  I can definitely relate with that now.  I've had more breakdowns, but I try to remember to always pray during those times.  When I feel the lowest and that I can't do anymore, I know that Heavenly Father can help pick me up and take me through it.  Reminds me of the footprints story.....

Since the last couple chemos, I haven't had the crazy flu like reaction (Relief).  First day just don't feel well-- really tired and woozy.  Next couple days dealing with that and nausea, then the constipation/diarrhea, aches, chest pain kicks in.  My arm veins have been bothering me again.  Fatigue through it all--definitely am getting more and more weak, and I get really bad stomach and headaches. 

I feel like I started all powerful and motivated and now I'm stretching to make it through each day without becoming bothered by it.  I've found that I am having to distract myself more and put myself in situations that I don't have to remember I have cancer.  It's so hard to do that when you feel crummy though.  But being outside, having friends over, watching new movies, going out when I feel well enough all help.  

And, I've been able to eat this round!  I feel like I've gained back all the weight it lost though.... oops.  I guess I'm really embracing the desire to eat.  Haha.