Whirlwind

I'm laying in bed on the night before my last chemo treatment and I can't put a finger on how exactly I feel.  

It's been a long day coming and I thought I would be more than thrilled for this moment!

I can't help but worry that this was enough or that it will come back or that this chemo session will be awful like some a few months ago. 

I realize that I can't control what's going to happen, but I can't help but worry!  It's probaby the nightly anxiety talking.  Hopefully in the morning I'll be more ready for this!

I do know that God is over all.  Everything will work out in the end---even if the end is not in this life!